ugh i feel like im suckking, well im at 191, thats some progression, I just need to keep it up <3 I dont really know what else to say. =\

its disgusting I know

ugh so this morning i had a reallly big breakfast. I feel the need to vomit, ugh well lunch is just going to Granola and an apple, thats it. haha

heres my weekly pictures. I lost 5 lbs probably just water weight, Im down to 190.. woo hooo
<3

well i need this as motivation.. these are my goal jeans, when these are too big on me. I reached my goal theyre hollister 11s
I want to be a 7 or 9 so... <3o

Sorry if my flab makes you wanna vomit... ughh but hey atleast the pants are zippered. I just have massive love handles.. Im thinking maybe like 25 30lbs.. so maybe not 140, butt... WHATEVVERR

so far so good

well, I have been eating really healthy the past 3 days, I just hope that i can keep this up.
=) I had a few things here and there but is isnt anything like i was before, I am doing great. Drinking lots of water, staying away from fats and greese and sugar.
Do I miss it? as of right now, yes I do. I would love a nice cookie right about now. or maybe something else like a peanut butter sandwhich. But know what, when i shrink down to a 6 which is my goal size... I wont even bother. Until then, gotta keep it up <3

Starting

When its already december, most people say well "Ill tough it out and start on new years" But I asked myself, Why should I put all this junk inside my body, for the next 4 weeks.
I have no shame to tell you that I weigh 190 Lbs. I am 5 foot 7 and, yes I am aware that i am seriously over weight... Hence this blog.
Even if noone ever reads it, Its here for me, and that is all that matters

I think my biggest problem is I am a carboholic. I love Pasta, cookies, and soda... My weakest points.
I did fine by having a healthy choice meal for dinner, and mandarin oranges for dessert. then I got hungry, ate some rice a roni.. a few hrs later, cookies and started to drink a soda.
I was half way through my soda, and I asked myself is it worth it? Is it realllly really worth it, and I dumped the rest out and drank my water. Thats the question I need to ask myself when I reach for that cookie, or brownie! Is it worth it.
I think I am going to post a weekly progress picture, just to see how I am doing.

I have tried diets before, but this, is a healthy lifestyle! Thats what I am trying to do it have a healthy lifestyle!

so here we go, I have 2 shows tomorrow, and what I am going to do is not skip breakfast, and then run by giant and try to pick me up something for lunch. I dont have any money, but I also dont have anything to pack at my house, So Im pretty much S.O.L
I would rather spend a few bucks then pack a pizza, or starve myself.

well its 3am and I have to be awake at 615 and i cant pull an all nighter, I will go crazy by the 2nd show.
Have a good night yall.